ready? i haven't done this in a while. here comes a little expression.

this week has been the best. hands down. this past week has been the first time since almost a year ago that i could sincerely say that i was happy for any considerable amount of time. i have been with people who make me smile, and i have found someone who helps me forget how unhappy i have been in the past. to me, that is phenominal. there aren't many people that i can tolerate for any amount of time - a select few. it makes me smile so much to be comfortable with someone. i really thank phillip for being real. you can't imagine how scarce a real person is. on that note,  i love the majority of the cast and crew of guys and dolls - minus a small selection of complete idiots, i thank everyone for not starting backstage drama or being idiotic or unfocused or phoney. i thank them for doing what they love and loving life and doing all they can to be in the moment. those are the characteristics that keep me energized and keep me going and help me to move forward when i want to quit the most. i am glad that i have emotions like this to express- conversely, i hate that i express them as they will only make them miss this feeling more.

one thing to know - if you think i hate you, i probably do. if you think i love you, you couldn't underestimate my emotions more. no words can say.